Being out in nature isn't enough. I need to be engulfed by moss
Another life keeps testing me:
After having a good two days in a row, I received a bill for over 300 dollars today from when I had Norovirus and they told me I was fine and wouldn’t help me even though I was extremely sick (wayyyy sicker than when I had covid)
Like a came home feeling genuinely happy and as soon as I opened the letter I just started sobbing and haven’t stopped.
Guess who’s dryer no longer work, had to have her bedroom door destroyed because the door fused to the frame, and got tapped by a car while walking (which triggered unresolved emotions from when I got hit back in February)
It’s been so hard trying to be optimistic recently. It feels like if it’s not one thing, it’s something else. I also have to pay for classes soon and i’m so scared about having to work less hours when I go back to school.
I really feel like since the start of the year i’ve had a grey cloud over me that I can’t escape. I’m so sorry to complain on this website but I really needed to vent and let this all out.
07/10/23
Mini life update:
Work is still meh (ya girl is looking for a new job)
Been having car issues which is both annoying and expensive 😭
I helped a friend film something and I got to explore a new area and the surrounding was stunning
I also accidentally left my phone in said friend’s car and went over 24 hours without a phone which was pretty nice. I discovered one of the many things I use my phone for is a watch (especially in public) and clocks are harder to come across.
P.S photos attached are the pictures I took during the filming
Y’all i’m so tired and frustrated at my work situation. I’m often belittled and treating as if i’m just a dumb, girl.
My manager today insinuated that i’m not very intelligent and can’t believe that i’m a STEM major. Sir, don’t discredit my intelligence because you can’t give clear instructions.
Fingers crossed I get a better job that treats me with respect.
